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Prayers of the Heart …

The prayer of my heart this morning was …. It is my desire to love you more.

It is my desire to love you.

If there is anything that will keep me from you …then I do not want it

If my name being known keeps me from spending time with you …. then I do not want it

If the money, houses and cars make me forget you …. then I do not want it

I posture my heart before you

and on the altar of my heart I lay my

will, my plans, my desires, my thoughts, my fears and insecurities

Send your fire your Lord…

to burn them away

Replace them with your will, with your plans, with your desires

Replace them with your thoughts

Replace my thoughts of myself with the thoughts you have toward me

Keep me in a place of longing for you

Keep a conviction and void until I spend my time with you

until I hear your voice.

For my desire is to hear you, to speak with you.

Speak Lord for your servant is listening.

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Psalms 139 ….

 I have never read Psalms 139 in its entirety until last night. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever come across.  I had a really rough evening on yesterday, I’m not sure why I was not (and even still) I am not sure what had triggered my attitude LOL but Lord knows …. Literally the Lord knew I had one. 

I took it God in prayer and I laid it at the feet of Jesus and even in prayer I begin to ask God that if I never grow into a “gift” if I never grow to the “fullness” He has called me to please do not take away our relationship. I pleaded with God, that no matter where I go in life do not let me forget. 

I prayed and I told God do not perfect or cultivate another gift until my relationship is right and pleasing unto Him. Do not give me another word until my relationship is right with Him.

Relationship is most important, over the offices over the gifts and destinies and purposes. Relationship is more important than what God holds in His hand.

The bible tells us that many have called out “Lord, Lord”  and many prophesied in His name and drove out demons and performed miracles but were never known. 

I told God, “I want to be known by you”. 

So after I had finished, I hopped up and ran to my bible LOL …. I stumbled upon Psalms 139 and I read it and felt so much peace in my heart and spirit.

So, here I am sharing it with you all. I do not do this to boast as I normally do not like sharing things like this but I do this to encourage you and show you that God is concerned about His children and the affairs and going on’s with His children. He is faithful and just to reply and to confirm you in any situation.  

 I also do this in hopes that this will excite you to seek the Lord and find out how He speaks to you, that in seeking Him you will find out what that good perfect and acceptable will is for your life and those around you. 

Know that God is concerned and He does care for you. 

 

Psalm 139  

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
    Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
    your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
    and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
    I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.


Judge not Lest Ye be Jugded?

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”

Matthew 7:1-2

 

This may not be a new observation to some, but this world is crazy.

The word says in 2 Timothy

“But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power.”Have nothing to do with such people”.

I am sure the majority reading this will say yep, I have seen most of , if not all of this in operation whether it be on the television, in our own personal lives or just in day-to-day activities.

But I do firmly believe that in all this there are still a few called and chosen ones who just have not been pulled out from this monotonous circle. 

There is still a people who are waiting for the son’s of glory to be revealed. I do believe they are coming, matter of fact they are here.

The question is, are we as a body in position to receive them?

Is our light shining?

Or have we forgotten where we have come from and we have thrown them aside as if our God is not loving or compassionate? As if our God cannot extend His graces and mercy to them?

 As if He would not have it that all men be saved?

I know often times we are quick to judge.

I know as for myself I am quick to judge.

Often times, we quickly jump up and say what we and what we not do if we were to be in a situation.

Often times, we label them as a bad person, a bad mother, a bad father a bad child and we fully do not understand that there is something underlying that is motivating this child to pick on some one.

There is an underlying force that is causing this father to abandon his children and live a life in the streets, there was an underlying force that caused a mom to give up her child.

We never take that into consideration.

I shared with a co-worker of mine that … I can easily say what I would and would not do in any given situation…

 but if  something  really went down in my life where it shoved me into the corner and forced me to make a hasty decision … all odds seem stacked against me and this option might be the only way out … I don’t know how to pray I don’t know how to call on the name of Jesus.

I don’t know that there is someone out there to help me or I just don’t know there is other options ..

there is really no telling what I would do.

I might just be the mom who decided to leave her child some where, I might be the woman that sells her body, I might be the man who left his kids, I might be the school bully, I might be the drug addict.

Now, in no way do I justify wrong that has been done but I am just saying that we need to be a little more understanding and not so quick to write others off.

Imagine if God was like us.

I am glad He is not.

We need to build up the whole man, we don’t need to remind people of what they have done. I am sure they are fully aware.

God forgives me constantly, yet He never reminds me of the wrong I have done and as a matter of fact He takes my sins and throws them into the sea of forgetfulness.

He looks at where we are going versus where we have been with the only reason for us to remember is that we can say that He pulled us out from bondage and set us free.

So let us like Paul said think soberly of ourselves and not more highly than we ought … unless we deceive ourselves.

” Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves”.

Galatians 6: 1-3

 


That was Random…

I just wanted to share “again”  something that I noticed the other day talking my daughter, Michaela.

My husband was taking me to work last week and our babies (not so much babies) were in the car and my daughter said to my oldest son, Elijah .. “Have you lost all of your teeth”  in which he answered after thinking for a minute  “No”.

So, she goes on to ask him … “Well, when did you start losing your teeth?” she yells to me in the front seat … “Mommy, when did Elijah start losing his teeth?”

I told her that Elijah began losing teeth when he was five, I said you don’t remember Micci and she answered and said “No, I was only 2”.

“Ding, Ding”  … that’s when I had a moment.

….. I always tell people what intrigues me is that in a relationship such as a marriage;

you have two separate lives now that you have to mesh together all the while still respecting their life individual calling and purpose.

I hope this is making sense.

It does in my head LOL.

But we are taking each individual life and now making it one.

I take my husbands attributes his gifts and talents .. his ultimate life purpose and not only am I pushing him, not only am I trying to push him to seek out what is it God has placed within him ..  and at the same time he does likewise with me.

Cool thing is, is that both of us can benefit from one another!

In the natural … he is a network engineer. His aspiration is to own his own company doing all that great “techy” stuff.

My aspiration is to open a transition center for women.

Ok, our two individual aspirations .. can become one when I finally open my center and he has his IT company and we come together and do business.

We have intertwined our aspirations.

So, I said all that to say …

That is kind of confirmed everything that I thought before.

Even in my children’s’ lives and the way I viewed them.

I realized that even though they are under the same roof  and share the same parents, they both have their own separate gifts, talents and purposes.

It was just an eye opener for me … to hear that she did not remember when her brother lost his teeth and even though they were under the same roof they were in different seasons and at different points in their life.

I love that  at any given point you can be in a crowd of  people and they are all in different seasons of their life.

Awesome thing is … God is tending to all of them, pruning some, watering some, inspecting fruit on some, and uprooting some.

That right there also reminds me and causes me to respect the seasons of others.

Just because I am in the season of harvest (just as an example) does not mean I pick on, beat up and judge the next who is still in a time of sowing.

We need to be sensitive of those around us and not so quick to “judge” someone.

We are called to be ready in and out of season to correct,  rebuke, and encourage with GREAT PATIENCE AND CAREFUL INSTRUCTION.

So while we do not have to be a “respecter of  persons” we do need to be a respecter of seasons and us what we have gained in past seasons to encourage and help someone make through theirs’.

 

Happy Blogging.

 

 


Sharing is Caring … part II

Hey Fellow Bloggers!

I pray that you all have had a wonderful day! It is currently 91 degrees here in Richmond … and while it is hot I am still enjoying all of it!

I just wanted to share with you all briefly what God pressed into my spirit this morning while in prayer!

LOL … I laugh at that because it sounds so deep and so ultra spiritual … and while it is spiritual the act of praying and communicating and talking to my Father, it really won’t all that deep. I was actually praying in my car on the way to work.

I try to challenge myself and pray in my heavenly language the entire way to work …

Anyway, while I was praying God pressed in my spirit and I mean literally I could feel it on my heart and in my chest so heavily .. I do not know how you hear a feeling but that is exactly what happened!

But what I heard/felt was …

“That the Body of Christ is great  and it’s alive and that the Bride is being adorned and she is beautiful”

I was so excited and filled with such joy it was incredible … but as always I encourage you Saints and Children of God to keep pressing.  We are His church we are the Body and Christ is our Bridegroom and the Head of our lives and He is coming back for a church without spot or wrinkle.

I do pray in this season that we all stand together in unity … a unity as never before. I pray that we stand with the full understanding that we are many parts that make up one great and awesome body. Regardless of your function you are needed and there no big “I” and little “Me’s” or “You’s” in this thing.

There is one great “Him” though! LOL

I also found myself praying that in this season God will begin to pour out His spirit on all flesh and that a great prophetic voice begin to rise up within the body. I prayed also that a great evangelism will begin to take place in the land and that God would begin to raise up a people that will set the pace and that will show people the difference between holy and unholy. In Ezekiel God had priests who dressed a certain way and wore their hair a certain way and were set apart so that everyone would know the difference between the things that are holy and the things that are not.

I prayed that this will begin to take place in the land and that people would see and know … and that great and strong conviction would rise within the people and they would have and experience a true repentance and have a true turning away from sin.

I am always amazed … that we are one body with many different parts. I am totally in awe and I am honored and often humbled to be in fellowship to labor with the people that I do within my church. It is important that you know those who labor among you .. not just so you can say who is lazy and who doesn’t work or handle things in the same manner as you but to be able to utilize what God has placed within them.

It took me time to realize that for myself honestly .. if I can be real.

So many times people within the body spend so much times looking at what so and so does and can do that we don’t realize that we ourselves are fearfully and wonderfully made.

It is enough being me … why in the world would I try to be someone else.

Doing way too much!

So with that, encourage you to embrace who you are and who you have been created to be. Have full confidence in God that when He created He knew exactly what He was doing and why and know that we have not fully obtained the fullness of Christ but we PRESS!


Sharing is Caring …

I just wanted to briefly share something with you all.

As I stated in my last post .. I am earnestly fighting to keep the revelation, understanding and peace I have just been given.

I feel as though I am in a good place … not that I have already attained or am already perfected (in the words of Apostle Paul)  but I press on towards that place that God has predestined for me to be ( In the words of “Me”)!!

So, I know lately I have been going through eye-opening moments in my walk and not just eye-opening (that really watered down what God is doing in my opinion) I have been experiencing life altering, soul foundation shaking, lights of heaven, angels descending from on high, trumpet sounding, earthquake causing  demon scattering, mind-blowing, jaw dropping, salivation causing light bulb moments.

Where the tactics of the enemy has been exposed, where you think you knew how him and imp’s worked and then you find out that you really did not it so much more advanced than what you think. Although, the devil is a defeated foe … he certainly is not stupid and most definitely is playing for keeps.

We are in our second or third month of Elijah’s Company, School of the Prophets in which in this month we are learning and studying on deliverance. One thing that Prophetess D spoke on is how the kingdom of darkness is a well put together system. Organized, yep it is .. even thought we all know their demise .. them defeated suckers are organized and when they play they do not play fair.

The jokers most definitely know who is carrying the true authority of their Father and who is not.

” Jesus I know, Paul I know but who are YOU?”

“OUCH”

So, with that it is important that we as children of God walk with all diligence. I shared this with God in prayer.

I pray all the time God keep me mindful … Keep me sober, Keep my eyes open and sometimes when we think our eyes open God shows us otherwise.

I thank God for my leaders and I bless God for my senior leaders who are always there to teach and to pour into their people!

“Anytime there is great elevation there is great warfare. So just because this is a time when we celebrate and we are jubilant does not mean we let our guards down. We must always be mindful of the warfare”  Apostle and Prophetess Hathaway

 Well, golly day!

Over the past few days, my leaders opened up my eyes to the tricks and the schemes of the enemy!

It made me open my eyes and really step back and say, “Wow” .

How easily the enemy can come in run a muck and you now here you are sitting there pointing the finger and harboring anger and whatever else you pick up … and now you are fighting flesh and blood and not even paying attention to the real enemy.

Through, this revelation it lead me to repent and really ask God to work on me. So, I laid right back on the potter’s wheel realizing “this pot still ain’t finished”

Fortunately, we serve a God who knows and understands very well how His children are LOL.

God is always speaking and He is always waiting behind the door when we knock, He is always there to show His face when we seek Him and righteousness.

He sent me a scripture Tuesday morning

Ephesians 5:15-20

“15 Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, 16 making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. 17 Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. 18 Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, 19 speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord,20 always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

and THEN He sent me this

2 Corinthians 7:9-11

“9 yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. 10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. 11 See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done. At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter.” 

So .. make sure saints that we are walking circumspectly, and that we are living not as unwise but as wise. We have to  understand that weapons of our warfare are not carnal!!

We learned in our class that if the enemy can get you focused on strife between your brother and sisters and if he can get you focused on what talent, gift and calling someone else has on their life then he has already defeated and distracted you and you missed the real attack.

That is why it is important to be secure in who you are remember we are many different parts but we make up ONE body.

That is why it is SUPER important to remember that the weapons of our warfare ARE NOT CARNAL.

The war we fight is not flesh and blood but it is kingdom against kingdom. It is principalities and rulers in dark places.

It is one kingdom trying to advance over the other kingdom.

We got to know that while we are wrapped in flesh … we are spiritual beings first.

But I say all that to say that God had showed me that I wasn’t living as “wise” as I thought.

There is always room for improvement, there is always more that we can and need to be learning and God opening my eyes and showing me just how thoughtless and completely unaware our human nature can be … brought me into repentance.

A true Godly repentance always produces fruit.

True repentance is a turning away from a sin, from a bad habit. 

So, I thought I would share that before I turn in for the night.

Apostle Mike says we need to “Master Repentance”. So I pray that we all master repentance.  That we come transparent before the one who knows us best anyway and lay everything at His feet. Allow God to show you areas of opportunities within your life.

Make sure that we are walking as wise and being sober and vigilant and filled with God’s spirit which gives us life.

Ok I am getting sleepy … LOL

I love you all God Bless and Good Night.

Oh

and

Happy Blogging!!


Random Post …

I am laughing at myself … because as much as I talk and as much as I love to talk … I am learning how to articulate what I feel.

Articualtion is important .

LOL, I also believe when you read the word you get new revelation and God teaches you big words too #comeasachild

and I get so excited when I say them not knowing if it is really a word .. and I look it up and it is.

John 14:26

26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.

I dare you to take God at his word today.